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In December, 2005, I conducted a two-day workshop with men who had recently been released from prison for domestic violence. With the men were their wives, as well as the father of a batterer who was still in prison.The father, Douglas, sat in front of me, sharing his childhood experiences. My momma was a very loving woman a big-hearted, hard working loving woman, he told me. From my many years of counseling, I knew that my definition of love and his definition of love were likely very different.Did she ever beat you? I asked. Oh yeah. She beat me all the time. My daddy beat my momma and my momma beat me. But she beat me because I was bad. I was really bad. Maybe if she had beat me more, I wouldnt have been so bad.What did she beat you with?Anything she could get her hands on. Extension cords, wooden spoons. Often I had to go into the yard and pick out the switch.How did you feel when you knew you were going to get a beating?Oh, I was terrified. Id beg and plead and promise not to do again whatever it was she was mad at. But that never worked. I always got the beating. Then after the beating she would tell me that she loved me, that it was for my own good, and that it hurt her more than it hurt me.And how were you bad?Well, sometimes Id come in late, and sometimes I would talk back. Then I got into alcohol and drugs at a very early age. Maybe if she had beat me more, I wouldnt have done the alcohol and drugs.Why do you think you did the alcohol and drugs?I was just hurtin too much. It took me outta all the pain for awhile.What was the pain?I dont know. I was just hurtin a lot.Do you think it is possible that you were hurting because the woman who was supposed to protect you was instead hurting you? That she was confusing you by telling you she loved you while she was beating and terrifying you? That there was no one to turn to for safety and nurturing? That you were scared much of the time for fear of the beatings? That you were terribly lonely and could not turn to your parents because they were the ones causing the pain?Silence Then he looked at me in shock. As the light bulb when on in his mind, the tears started rolling down his weathered cheeks. Soon he was sobbing. Thats right Thats right .The beatings were the problem. More beatings would not have helped. And I beat my children thinking it was the right thing to do, and now my son is in prison for beating his wife and protective services want to take away their daughter. And I almost hit her the other day when she didnt mind me. Im so glad I didnt. This has to stop! This has to stop!I looked around the room. Everyone was in tears. Kathy, the wife of one of the batterers, spoke up, sobbing.Ive always hit my kids, and no matter what anyone told me about it not being good, it never made sense to me. This is the first time I understand why its not a good or loving way to discipline my kids. And I can see why Im having so many problems with my older son and why he is on drugs. He has always been furious with me and I had no idea why. Now I understand. I need to learn a new way to discipline. Im going to take a parenting class and start reading parenting books.I hugged Douglas for the profound work he did, and for the effect his work was having on everyone in the room. I thanked God for giving me the privilege of working with these people. All of them, it turned out, had been severely beaten as children. I am deeply grateful to James Beard who conducts workshops within the prison with batterers and to Lindsay Wagner, who also works with these men and their families. Both of them were assisting me at this workshop. We all smiled at each other in deep gratitude for the healing that was taking place.
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